Close your eyes- just for tonight

fun week

2005-07-28T15:19:42Z

warped tour was the other day.

i went to adrianna's that morning to pick her up. it took her about 20 minutes to get ready while i waited in the driveway. we went to danielles and waited for her dad to get there.

when we got to warped tour, we went to check out the schedule and i saw trevor, alex, kathryn, kim, and joe. we all stuck together for the day. i was checking out kim during senses fail (cuz shes gorgeous), and i felt the need to make out with her in the mosh pit- so i did- multiple times.

atreyu kicked ass. avenged sevenfold sucked. thrice only got to play 2 songs.

that was my day.

i would kill for her- shes perfect.

You know i hate life.

2005-06-15T23:51:55Z

Today was so blahh. My dad took me to vickys. I hung out there with her, kelly and brandon for a while.

im really fucking out of it. these last few weeks have sucked nut. i have been really emotional and depressed.

i'll fill this gay thing out because i need something to do before i throw a fist through a window.

LASTS
Last Cigarette: a couple hours ago
Last Alcoholic Drink: about 3 weeks ago?
Last Car Ride: today
Last Kiss: couple hours ago
Last Good cry: about an hour ago
Last Library Book: books suck
Last book bought: "How to pick up hot chicks at softball games"
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: spanglish
Last Movie Rented: gummo. it sucked.
Last Cuss Word Uttered: "fuck you, let me live my own life"
Last Beverage Drank: iced tea
Last Food Consumed: rice. ew
Last Crush: veronica
Last Phone Call: i wish some1 would call me once in a while
Last TV Show Watched: date my mom
Last Time Showered: this morning
Last Shoes Worn: eS accell
Last CD Played: renouf demo
Last Item Bought: water
Last Download: the He Is Legend cd
Last Annoyance: my mom
Last Disappointment: what she said to me
Last Soda Drank: ginger ale
Last Thing Written: lyrics
Last Key Used: s
Last Words Spoken: "fuck"
Last Sleep: when i got home today- kinda just passed out
Last Ice Cream eaten: last night
Last Chair Sat in: this one
Last Webpage Visited: livejournal

WHAT WERE YOU DOING
ONE MINUTE AGO: talking to chelsea
1 HOUR AGO: fighting w/ mom
1 DAY AGO: online
1 YEAR AGO: idk...probably skating

I
I HURT: right now
I LOVE: veronica
I HATE: mom
I FEAR: being alone
I HOPE: to stay in love
I FEEL: hurt
I HIDE: not much
I DRIVE: nothing- moms a bitch
I LEARN: nothing, i have terrible ADD
I NEED: to be held by her
I THINK: of the worst possible outcomes

FIRSTS
First screen name: korndawg7869
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: none
First enemy: i have a few, i dont keep track
First concert: Blink 182/green day

SHORT ANSWER
I AM: upset
I WANT: to see chelsea.
I HAVE: a girlfriend
I WISH: stfu
I HATE: mom
I WONDER: what will happed to me
I LOVE: veronica
I ACHE: now
I ALWAYS: think of her
I DANCE: not anymore...mtf= mean
I SING: badly
I CRY: over girls
I NEVER: want to be without her
I WRITE: emo songs
I WIN: at nothing
I LOSE: alot
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: her
I SHOULD: kill my mom

YES or NO
YOU KEEP A DIARY: this
YOU LIKE TO COOK: meh
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH Anyone: not many
HAVE A CRUSH: mhm
WANT TO GET MARRIED: YESSSS
GET MOTION SICKNESS: only on spinning rides
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: mot really
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: never
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: omg yes
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: idk

FAVORITES
NUMBER: 13
COLOR: periwinkle
DAYs: good days
MONTH: april
SONG(S): "the seduction" by He is legend
SEASON: spring or summer
DRINK: monster energy

PREFERENCES
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: both on and off
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate syrup
DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? ya
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? ya
GOTTEN SICK? yesss
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
SAID 'i love you'?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: ya
MISSED AN EX: no
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: this
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yeah :-(
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes

what the fucking christ

2005-06-09T02:08:13Z

tonight is by far one of the worst nights of my life.

all i can say is Vicky dumped me.

i dont wanna tell people details cuz i dont even know what they are.

chelsea- thanks for everything

i love her so much and i never wanted to be without her.

brushed_red @ 2005-06-06T22:06:00

2005-06-07T02:07:32Z

so yeah this is Vicky again =]

Leave me comments =]

Pat had a show on saturday they did AMAZING <3

I love Pat Wahl Moree then anything =] He's so amazing, I wouldnt leave him for anyone

except chelzy

oh yeah Pat sucks big black cock =]

kbye

THATS WHAT SHE SAID

2005-05-30T02:14:29Z

welll this is Vicky not pat =) becuase I'm cool like that

Pat----Vicky is *amazing* and CHelzy is too

and can't forget bibby =) he's just dead sexy \

Back to Vicky : uhh Pats super cool and we hung out with Amy and ANdrea :: oh shoooot:: hah

anywhooo I went ot battle of the bands with Pat and CHelzy and Bibby....it was fun FELICE GOT THIRD =]

okay I love Pat because he's awesome and grrreat in bed ;) hah I crack myself up

omg a new post

2005-05-23T01:16:16Z

okay so i havent updated this in almost 8 months and i might just bring it back completely.

well my girlfriend is the most amazing person on earth. yesterday her and sarah came and picked me up and we got mike clar, kelly (bloom), and ashley and all went to the lilac festival. we stayed only for like 20 minutes and then we left and got chinese, then went to vickys for a while. i learned a few new things about her, and thats pretty interesting. but im tired so im out....fill out this thingy.

01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is :
27.what am i most self consious about?do you think i should be?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36.what makes me smile?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

I LOVE YOU VICKY.

bored

2004-11-21T15:47:31Z

im so bored so im gonna do one of the trendy gay surveys.

Your full name:: Pat Wahl
Age:: 16
Height:: 5'10"
Natural hair colour:: brown
Eye colour:: shaith color
Number of siblings:: 1
Glasses/contacts?:: no
Piercings:: not yet
Tattoos:: not yet
Braces?:: no
FAVOURITE Colour:: black
Band:: atreyu, killswitch engage, it dies today
Song:: "threnody for modern romance" by it dies today
Stuffed animal:: the camel....i named him humpy
Video game:: gay.
TV show:: south park
Movie:: donnie darko
Book:: no haha
Food:: mac n cheese
Game on a cell phone:: i wouldnt know
CD cover:: my chemical romance- three cheers
Flower:: tulips are better
Scent:: pizza
Animal:: camel!
Comic book:: boner man
Cereal:: life
Website:: www.rotten.com
Cartoon:: south park still.
DO YOU Play an instrument?:: larynx
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: no
Like to sing?:: no. im just lead singer of a band
Have a job?:: im gonna work at dunkin donuts
Have a cell phone?:: no
Like to play sports?:: skate
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: yais! yer cute!
Have a crush on someone?:: yais
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: canada would be cool
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: uh....ya
Have any special talents/skills?:: idk maybe scream.
Excercise daily?:: i skate
Like school?:: i like foreman.
CAN YOU Sing the alphabet backwards?:: i did once when i stayed home sick.
stand on tip toes without shoes on:: no
Speak any other languages?:: spanish, but i dropped it like it was hot
Go a day without food?:: unfortunatly
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: i made it to 40 sumthin
Read music, not just tabs?:: never....tabs are the lazy persons way and thats so me.
Roll your tongue?:: yea
Eat a whole pizza?:: i had 2 one night haha
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: yais
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yais.
Gotten lost in your city?:: no im good with directions
Seen a shooting star?:: so many
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: ya
Had a serious surgery?:: no
Stolen something important to someone else?:: yeah haha
Solved a rubiks cube?:: one side.
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: i used to wear pajamas to school when i likes ska.
Cried over a girl?:: yes
Cried over a boy?:: hahaha yeah actually.
Kissed a random stranger?:: yeah and now shes my gf.
Hugged a random stranger?:: yeah
Been in a fist fight?:: yeah...w/ joel
Been arrested?:: yais.
Done drugs?:: pshhht its too trendy for me.
Had alcohol?:: yais....my family is forceful
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: yes!!!!
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: yeah then sat thru it
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: no...
Swore at your parents?:: all the time.
Been to warped tour?:: YES
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: i got suspended for that in 7th grade
Been in love?:: yesssss
Been close to love?:: are u gay?
Been to a casino?:: yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: yes....traumatic.
Broken a bone?:: ankle, nose, toes
Gotten stitches?:: yes....
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: no....thats gay
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: choclolate milk.
Made homemade muffins?:: yeah...gerri
Bitten someone?:: yes...andrea :D
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: yeah but i was too young to remember
More than 5 times?:: no
Been to niagra falls?:: about 10 times
Burped in someones face?:: ya
Gotten the chicken pox?:: yeah...adam stayed with us and i got him sick.
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: this morning
Went to the bathroom:: 30 mins ago
Saw a movie in theaters:: last weekend. eww.
Read a book:: macbeth...but i didnt pay attention
Had a snow day:: west irondequoit sucks.
Had a party:: at my house? idk.
Had a slumber party:: a month ago w/ dave...
Made fun of someone:: today...my sister
Tripped in front of someone:: idk
Went to the grocery store:: yesterday
Got sick:: about a month ago
Cursed:: about 5 minutes ago
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: uncountable...
What are their names?:: wiener.
Do you have a best friend?:: yais
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: yeah
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: probably girls
Have you ever lost a friend?:: yes
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: yais w/ val :D
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: idk...
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: yeah
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: IDK?!!?!
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: let me love her. <3
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: yeah...aaron...
What friend have you known the longest?:: Dave...since he was born
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: yes
If so, what is it?:: ignoring gerri when i was in 9th grade
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: every day
Do any of your friends drive?:: yes!
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: yes :(
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: sucked trevors dick.. jk
What do you think your friends think of you?:: idk....let them judge.
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: yes!
If you have, with who?:: andrea more than any1
Are you single?:: no
Are you in a relationship?:: yaisssss
If so, for how long?:: 2 months this friday
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: yes
What is your idea of the best date?:: just being with her.
What was your first kiss like?:: it was truth or dare.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: hmm...13 maybe
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: never
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: just holding her.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: ya
Have you ever been dumped?:: yes
Have you ever dumped someone?:: yes
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: uh sex....but i dont wanna get into it.
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:: mom
Hat:: bad hair
Hard:: me.
Free:: food
Space:: ship
Taste:: bad
Good charlotte:: posers
Red:: silverstein shirt
Deep:: love
Heart:: andrea
Cord:: my makeshift belt
Cheese:: downs syndrome
Rain:: no skating
Work:: cottonfield
Pedal:: flower
Head:: blowjob
Bed:: warm
Fluff:: andrea
Race:: niggers
Knife:: niggers
Jump:: niggers
i...am:: a nigger
want:: andrea
need:: andrea
crave:: andrea
love:: andrea
hate:: holly
did:: masturbate
feel:: in love
miss:: andrea
am annoyed by:: holly...fucking bitch
would rather:: be with andrea
am tired of:: niggers
will always:: love andrea
What is your favourite genre of music?:: hardcore
What time is it now?:: 10:34 am
What day is it?:: sunday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: yesterday
How much money do you have right now?:: broke
Are you hungry?:: not really but i eat anyways
Whatcha doin?:: writing this
Do you like parades?:: gay.
Do you like the moon?:: if it blew up, yeah
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: hope andrea gets online
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: u sound like adrianna
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: invisiblity
Have you ever had a picnic?:: ya
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: yeah...gay
What about sock em boppers?:: beat the shit out of a nigger w/ it.
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: yes
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: i guess
pretty?:: "yer cute" so maybe
sarcastic?:: yeah
lazy?:: mhm
hyper?:: ya
friendly?:: ya
evil?:: ya maybe
smart?:: no
strong?:: kinda
talented?:: maybe
dorky?:: no
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: kelley
skip:: gerri
dance:: tasha's bad dancing HAHAHA
lonely:: down's syndrome kid
pen:: brandi's pens
flower:: chelsea?
window:: joel
psycho:: adrianna
brain freeze:: kool-aid man
orange:: ?
sassy:: amy
jelly:: andrea
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: for
love:: for
drunk drivers:: against
airplanes:: for
war:: against
canada:: FOR
united states:: for
rock music:: against- see HARDCORE
gay marriage:: for
school:: against
surveys:: for
parents:: for meh
cars:: for
killing:: depends
britney spears:: against against against
coffee:: for
pants:: for....unless its for andrea
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: noooo
Play strip poker?:: i have....p-rob
Run away?:: maybe
Curse at a teacher?:: i have so many times
Not take a shower for a week?:: not anymore
Ask someone out?:: fogged up windows.
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: i have....
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: yessss
Go scuba diving?:: its scary hahaha i have
Write a book?:: nah
Become a rockstar?:: maybe a hardcorestar
Have casual sex?:: who wouldnt? i would.
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: apple
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: X
What kind of computer do you have?:: dell
What grade are you in?:: 9th, 10th and 11th.
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no thats gay...but i end up doin it neways
Or just make out?:: thats what im talkin about.
How many posters do you have in your room?:: prolly about 12
How many cds do you have?:: probably around 150
What time is it now?:: 10:47 am

whooaaaaaaa

2004-11-14T15:45:12Z

its about time i updated it.....

this weekend has gone by sooo slowly...

on friday i got a ride over to finney and waited an hour or so for andrea to get out. we picked up tyler and sloth and went over to andreas house. we just chilled and beat eachother up, shaved our legs, pee-ed with eachother, put on make-up and layed in the hallway. :-) After that we went to that trendy cafe downtown....java's. alot of emo hardcore kids go there....even black hardcore kids. we played pool for a couple hours and drank chocolate sitch's.

yesterday me and chelzy went to the movies and saw the grudge. it was gheyyyyy. like seriously. i had NO plot, whatsoever. we got back to chelseas house and hung out.

today im going to andrea's for the whoooollle day :-o

i loooovvvve you soooo much andrea marie whitbeck

Dead tired

2004-10-26T23:53:43Z

I am so tired. I have nothing to write about.

oh wait.

I think im going to the teen center friday. I get to see my baby. No not amy....my andrea.

On saturday, me and val are going to see renouf/achilles at clubside.

For holloween, im probaly gonna be at practice for a while, then me, nick, alex and trev are gonna go egg people and get candy.

I LOVE andrea so much...a whole month today!

take off that stupid man suit.

2004-10-24T02:22:17Z

Today was real fun. I got picked up by trevor and nick at 1. We went to nick's and found out that Alex could practice because it was his moms birthday. We forced him to come though. We were like "trev's g/f will show u her tits!" He came a few minutes later.

When everything was GOOD, we started off covering "maybe memories" by the used. It was flawless. Then right after that we broke into "unholy confessions" by A7X. It was even better. Alex is ridiculous at guitar. They tought me their new song "Open Door".

When we got it down as well as we could, we decided to chill and do some more covers. We did some blink182 (or as much as I could stomach of it), but it was fun. We attempted good charlotte. We started laughing too hard to finish. We did NOFX's linoleum (pat's favorite song) 1st try, perfectly. We then decided, Taking Back Sunday was in order. We tried "you know how i do" and "bike scene" but got bored. We finished "you're so last summer", but it sucked cuz my voice couldnt go that high.

When alex left, me, nick, trev and his gf just chilled in his basement, listening to bad religion, eating bagel bites, taking about sexual expreiences and concerts we saw.

I am now, officially, the new lead singer of Red Letter Days.

Fun day.

I love you so much andrea.
that monster on the haunted hayride tried stealing you!
That was a great night. Were badass.

"MOM THERE MAKING OUT IN THE BACK SEAT!" ~Amy
"WTF??! no we arent!!!" ~andrea

yea we were.

My back hurts

2004-10-22T00:46:35Z

omg....my back hurts so bad. it feels like i need to crack it but it wont.

tomorrow im going to skate from foreman into fairport. On the way i saw these awesome bank/quarter pipe/launch ramp things behind a warehouse. Im gonna shred those things up. Then when i get into fairport, im going to wait.....maybe skate the 9 stair a little. At 5, im gonna get a ride from andrea to.....uh...idk. i guess the haunted hayride. BOO!

Scary shit, brah.

Amy has downs syndrome

and i love andrea.

mmmmmmm taithies.

something went wrong with my last entry and it repeated 4 time. pretend that didnt happen.

Bad day

2004-10-19T23:24:41Z

Today was pretty terrible. School sucked. As soon as i got home, my mom says "pat, you got an interm report home hor math....you have a 72." So i was like "yes a 72!!!!" and my mom is like "i cant believe you! thats terrible...your father will probably ground you". I didnt understand it. I was failing with all 20s lats year and she considers a 72 in math bad?!?! Hokay, what the fuck. I mean, of course. I love my mom and i know shes just trying to keep me in line.

But if anything keeps me from seeing andrea, my mom will hear about it.

So....chelsea is cool. Im pretty happy for her. shes back with dustin.

Andrea. I love you so much. I hope you feel better.

Bad day

2004-10-19T23:24:36Z

Bad day

2004-10-19T23:24:26Z

Bad day

2004-10-19T23:23:53Z

Boring day

2004-10-16T23:38:46Z

Today was sooo slow. I woke up, cleaned the house then got online. I talked to andrea for a couple hours which is always amusing. Shes the love of my life. After that, i got hungry and bored, so i made a big ass bowl of vegetable beef soup and watched "supersize me". It made me never want McDonalds ever again. Half way through the movie i got hungry again so i grabbed popcorn. During the end credits, my parents got home. They were pretty happy with the way i took care of the house. It was all clean. In a few minutes im probably gonna get off and watch "the day after tomorrow". I feel like punching something or moshing. I wanna get rid of some energy. I have been listenin 2 that same song on repeat for 20 minutes.

I love you so unbelievably much, andrea.

So tired

2004-10-16T02:45:04Z

Today was pretty hxc.

Foreman was awesome. We got in trouble for listening to atreyu when the teacher was in the other room....she came in and heard "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK LOVE IS" and kinda freaked out. But anyways, my classmates critisized my Legal ID recording project. It was too "Unprofessional" because i screamed into the mic really loud for no reason. I was like "were jammin' DUUUUUDE!!!!!!!!!!"

After class, kim gave me a ride to the parking garage, which was fun. Shes a cool hxc person. I sat in the parking garage for a while, and got bored. I went skatin around fairport for a while, and saw kelley. She was all talkin about how shes addicted to heroin and coke. It was dissapointin, because i kinda looked up to her. Shes still a good friend though.

Then i went back to that garage to skate until andrea came. When she showed up, we kinda sat around, screaming "yeast infection" at ugly people for the next few hours. God. I was so cold. Andrea tried going in my secret pocket of my backpack....she cant go in there...its private. Naughty things.

After that, we got picked up by tylor, and went to amy's. We went to the playground and some deli. Mmmmm food. I made the mistake of telling amy that andrea looked like a downs syndrome person. HAHa. HO-KAY!

So i get home, and my sis says i can steal her car to drive up to the store. Driving without mom going "omg watch out for the old lady!" is so much better.

Well, i have hambuger helper cookin, and shaith.

<3andrea i love you.

My 1st entry

2004-10-14T22:29:44Z

Hey.
Yeah, this is my 1st entry. I tried making my own journal, but i got too frustrated. Erik gave this girl my sn, and she did it for me. Her name is Lauren. Shes mad cool, and i appreciate her doing this for me.

So. Today was cool. I got home and noticed that nobody was home. No sister, and my parents are in hell (canada). Theyre coming home on sunday though. Meh. When i got inside, i was like "HELLO? CUNTRAG?". No Answer. So what do i do? I make a b-line for the stereo, turn it up all the way, and i blast Norma Jean for about an hour.

I shall do my homework now...and maybe eat.

<3 andrea